What I’ve learned these past two weeks-
- Trust yourself. You know your dog better than any medical professional ever will.
- Make yourself HEARD and check for understanding multiple times. Make vet healthcare professionals repeat it back to you until you feel they understand the issue.
- Dogs have a crazytrain boatload of drive to survive. And even engulfed in that, they have an ever greater drive for connection.
In the end, Tipper became paralyzed in the back end. Maybe the cancer spread to his spinal cord. So, accupuncture did not help Tipper, but it did help me come to grips with Tipper’s time. I guess I never used the word “paralyzed”‘to describe Tipper being unable to move his back legsNfor the last several days and wound up getting him pain treatments thinking he had a pinched nerve that could be unlocked for him.
I don’t think it’s possible to see the end of our furbabies’ lives without second guessing. There’s always the matter of drawing a line with regard to pain – knowing that there is always more pain than a dog will ever show you. It just feels impossible to let them go while there is still such life left in there at a given moment.
Even though the end was unexpected and seemed to come on quick, we did have about a month-long process knowing the cancer had spread.
I’ve rescued Tipper a small handful of times during his decade as my baby. Even though it’s cliche’, we all know how they have rescued us. Having a “special needs”‘ (my euphemism for vicious on-leash) guy has given me a sense of purpose during hard times. The un-likelihood of someone else taking on the responsibility that is Tipper has kept me going many times! Parts of me thought I’d never
Parts of me have at times felt that I might never bond with Tipper the way I did with my heart dog Lexy. So not true. He’s insisted I spoon him under the covers for the past ten years. That gap with make it difficult to sleep!
Tripawds nation – God Bless you all for your support and celebrations along our journey.
Much Love,
Julie and Tipper